9 days Out

I've been at my parents house since the weekend, suffering from a lack of laptop and a flaky interweb connection. Still it's given me the chance to relax and become almost surgically attached to my Kindle (started reading A Song of Ice and Fire series following watching the first 2 episodes of Game of Thrones - I'm still two episodes into the series, but halfway through the second book. If any one has any good book recommendations let me know).

Physically I feel pretty good, the sickness feeling has past as have most of the headaches (although they were mild). I'm feeling tired though, but I am sleeping quite well - some days I have a nap but most days I resist. Technically however, the next few days I'm the most ill - it kills white blood cells as well as cancer cells, and statistically the next few days my immune system is at it's weakest point  it takes about 10 days for the white blood cells to die off as they're not being replaced by my bone marrow at the moment  as I understand it. The bone marrow should start to recover over the next few days and then the white blood cells will come flooding back - which needs to be tested before I can have my second dose of chemo. Emotionally I'm feeling a little strung out and delicate, but I suppose that's to be expected. I think I'm mourning for my youth.

My hair is not yet falling out, but this usually starts happening about 2-3 weeks, or sometimes longer after treatment.

I came back home last night with my Mum (Simon joined us in Essex for the weekend, but then had to go back to work) and today I'm off to hospital for another test. When they did the chest CT a few weeks back, it was noticed that there was some sort of abnormality on my ovaries. This is almost certainly due to an abnormality I am already aware of - I have PCOS - which is mostly harmless, but they don't want to take any chances and give the ovaries a good going over with the ultrasound to make sure there's nothing new and sinister going on there. I've had this done before, and its a fun test - they use your bladder a bit like a lens, so you have to drink 2 pints of water before you go in and not go to the loo. They then press the ultrasound wand into your belly for what seems like an eternity. Still compared to some of the tests I've had done to me recently, it should be a walk in the park.

I was also planning to get out in the garden and do some weeding to get a little exercise, but sadly today the good weather is broken and it is properly pissing it down outside. Maybe I'll wander up and down the stairs a bit instead - living in a 3 storey house is good for the heart. I'm considering taking up yoga - to do at home rather than a class to give me a little exercise and maybe a little inner peace.